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Give Yourself Some Grace
Something that I hear often now is to “give yourself some grace” when you are struggling which honestly works. As annoying as it is to hear, truly telling your brain to care a little bit more about you or to be nicer to yourself is the best advice ever. The world is a scary and…
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Blissful Stars
Sitting on some red rocks, I wonder how I got here: the most peaceful moment of my life. At the very beginning of the summer of 2022, I went bowling with some college friends. One of my friends, Jonny, had planned a two week long road trip from Chicago to Seattle and back. I always…
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Anything and Everything
The question of what makes me nervous is so overwhelming I am nearly speechless. Waking up every morning, I am paralyzed. Specifically, this morning I woke up and ran to the restroom to mimic pregnancy symptoms: morning sickness, hot flashes, and dizziness. Moreover, I am generally anxious or nervous. I mean, I have a diagnosis…
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I won’t go back
I would never want to go back to my high school. Immediately, I think about how people will go to their high school reunion, but that just sounds like absolute torture. The amount of memories I have buried under the tiles of that building is beyond astronomical that I have forgotten most of them if…
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Stuck in the Present
I want to move forward. Right now I feel particularly stressed about the past and stuck in the present. Which is weird. Normally, people would want to sit in the present and enjoy the moment, but right now I am striving and longing for the future. I already want to move on and start a…
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feeling a bit dissociated
I feel like I am living life in anticipation. Always waiting for the next thing and impatiently waiting at that. I want to enjoy the moment before it slips away, but what is there for me in this moment? I can try to make my way and be satisfied; however, I still yearn for the…
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Sunday Scaries
Torn up by nausea and cramps, I am struggling to think about the next day. I don’t want to have to get up early for work and get ready before the sun rises. It’s Sunday and I got the Sunday Scaries. How should we cope? Take a chill pill or get under a warm blanket?…
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Teaching and the Skills It Has Taught Me
For my mental health, I have decided that I no longer want to pursue my career of being a teacher. I won’t go into details of why I have decided but rather my experience of transitioning as a teacher to another career path. I haven’t decided exactly where I would like to land, but somewhere…
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Some thoughts on Shame and Guilt
I’ve sat and intrusively replayed every single embarrassing, hurtful, distressing memory in my head from the beginning of my life to now. I still remember when I thought I wanted to play a sport in elementary school and got into soccer. I wasn’t very great and I am incredibly sensitive when it comes to physical…
Sarah Delia Perez 